Weigh In: August 22 (day 20 on program)

I am such a trained, conditioned woman of the first world.  Regardless of how my clothes feel, how the inches come off, how much energy I have, and how my noticeable lack of physical pain...If the numbers on the scale don't go where I want them, or expect them, or hope/wish/pray them to...I still fall to pieces a little bit.  If my relationship to gravity does not change as planned I feel out of control and like a failure.  I cry.

I cried while pictures were being taken today (again).  I have only lost 2 pounds since last week, which puts me back to where I was after the first 7 days.

The Engineer points out we are using a new scale.  This is relevant because our old scale (non-digital) went nutso this week.  I did a morning weigh in yesterday...just to see...and I first weighed in at 220.  This seemed unlikely, given my numbers so far...so I stepped off and weighed again.  280.  Hrmmmm...I think she's dead.  So we obtained a digital scale.  TE points out that if the old scale was on the fritz then who really knows where we actually started out, weight wise.  All we know is where we are now.

The dress-makers tape we use to measure circumference, however: Other than a margin of user error, has been reliable.  He thinks sometimes we don't measure in exactly the same spots as previous weeks.  This is probably true, But I doubt we're making more than 1/4 inch of error that evens out over time anyway.

But my weight.  She appears to go nowhere.  Or at least not where I'd like.  But then I did side-by-side picture comparisons!  I feel much better now.

 

There is a distinct difference in the shape of my back and waist to hip ratio.  

 It's very easy to see the difference in where my stomach is in relation to the breasts (note: I am wearing a different style bra in the 2nd picture, which lifts the breasts a bit more).

 I see less noticeable differences in the front-shots.  I see that my sides are narrower than before, and maybe my posture has improved some?

Week	1	2		3		4
Weigh Date	8/2/2015	8/8/2015	Diff	8/14/2015	Diff	8/22/2015	Diff
Weight (LBS)	268	262	-6	264	2	262	-2
Chest	52"	51.5	0.5	51.5	0	51.75	-0.25
Thigh (Right)	28.5	28	1	28	0	27.35	0.5
Calf (Right)	16.75	16	1.5	16.25	-0.5	16	0.5
U Arm (Rt)	15.5	15	1	14.75	0.5	14.25	1
Forearm (Rt)	11.5	11.25	0.5	11.125	0.25	11	0.25
Upper Waist	45.75	44.75	1	44	0.75	44.25	-0.25
Navel	50"	49.75	0.25	48.75	1	47.5	1.25
L. Waist	55.75	55.5	0.25	54.25	1.25	53.75	0.75
Hips	50.25	49.625	0.625	48.5	1.125	49	0.5
			6.625		4.375		4.25

That is a total of 6 pounds lost (or maybe not...the scale may have been lying, but we'll accept it for now), 

and a total of 15.25 Inches lost overall since starting 20 days ago.  

I mean, reasonably speaking, 6 pounds in 20 days is not bad at all.  I was hoping for drastic, fast results because I have made such drastic changes in the way I life.  But I didn't get into this mess over night.  Plus, I'm an American and we, culturally, seem to idolize instant gratification.  

Now...I have an ice cream cake to eat.  

P.S.  Happy 1st Birthday to my cat, Monster (River).  He gets ice cream cake too!